Valentine's Day was yesterday. I hate that holiday haha. Tyler of course doesn't come home from Auburn so I had nothing to do. He did surprisingly send me some really nice flowers. He won't answer his phone for me to thank him tho. Pageant is in a week. I'm so excited!! I'm a bit nervous too. I have no clue how I want to do my hair. It's worrying me. I got some awesome casual/ interview outfits yesterday. I hope that the pageant goes well for me. I will be eating,sleeping, and breathing tissues for the next week. That should be pretty fun NOT haha. At least I have good study buddies lol

I'm am sittin in the library on the computer like I always do on lab days. I'm pretty used to doing nothing on days like today. Yesterday was amazing. I went to Tyler's farm in Danville. I felt like a real country girl lol. I really like him and now I know what he is all about. I met his whole family too. He was afraid that I would scared away by them, but of course I wasn't. I really think that there is more to us than we have put out there. I just really wish that he would say more though. I know that he is worried about school and distractions. He says that he doesn't want to be tied down, but I think he really does want to be w/ me like that but he's too scared to show his real emotions. I'm not an emotional by any means, but gah let a girl know. I guess all I can do is pray about it and not worry.
I've been asked to chaperone some of the youth girls during disciple now ar church. This means that I have to do bible studies w/ them and really be an open role model. I think most of the girls can talk to me pretty easily b/c I put myself out there for everyone and I'm friends w/ everyone. Pray that I can take on this responsibility and do the job that God has called me to do.

Being patient...

Well I've been patient w/ God for quite some time now. I've been through ridiculous relationships and still haven't really found what I want. I think I've found it now tho. Tyler is awesome. I graduated w/ him and was always really great friends w/ him. A few months ago I realized that I wanted to be more than just friends w/ him. He's always liked me so it wasn't hard for him to feel that way too. He was dating another girl at the time and the timing was so wrong. Well in the past month me and him have been dating and hanging out. He lives in Auburn/Danville so it's hard to find time to see each other. He is so easy to get along w/ and I don't have to change a thing about myself for him to like me. He has done alot of things that I absolutely don't agree w/, but he's past all that now. He has the same morals as me and that is really important w/ my Christian walk. I know that I can't tell him this yet, but I do love him. I think I always have tho.