I'll praise you in this storm.......

hello. haven't been on in a while and decided to catch ashley up haha so nursing school has started. it's really hard and overwhelming, but i'm making it. i'm slowly learning how to study and take tests. i'm glad to have ash and kristina every step of the way. i'm ready for this semester to be over with.
things have changed b/w me and logan. we are ALOT more serious. i really don't know if that is a good or a bad thing in some ways. i'm not ready for that next level and he is. it's really hard. it is has been eating at me for the past couple of weeks. i just really hope that he is willing to wait on me to be ready to make those steps to the next level. he seems like he's bored with me lately. i pray to God that he's not.
God really tugged at my heart yesterday at church. i have complete faith that God will help and guide me through all the problems i've been having lately. i'm just waiting on this storm to pass so that i can win in the end. i feel like i need to get back with God. i have a peace with him and i really need that peace right now. i pray that nothing or nobody comes b/w me and my God anytime soon b/c i just can't have that.

Long Time

WOW! It's been like forever. Can you believe I'm actually updating this Ash?? haha Anyways, Some things have changed in the past few months. I will be attending Bevill'l RN program for the next 2 years. I'm terrified. I really hope that it's what I want to do with my life. At least I have good friends to share the experience with. I really cannot wait till I become a nurse so I can move out of my house. My parentals get on my nerves really bad. I have been thinking about the future alot lately. I want dance to be in my future. I want to open up a dance studio once I get on my feet with nursing. I think that it would be fun. I need to ask my boss about it, just to have another opinion. Kaitlin is dating an awesome guy. Pat on the back for me haha I'm so glad that she's happy. She deserves to be happy. I'm not with Tyler anymore. He's a douche bag. You don't cheat on someone and then try to be friendly with them. That is impossible. I'm over it. I started dating this guy named Logan. It's funny how when I give up looking, I recieve a message from him. I think God has a reason for me meeting him. Whether it's to change his life, help me with nursing, have a new friend, or soul mates......I don't know. It's WAY too early in our relationship to decide that. He is a great guy though. I don't really like his past, but maybe I will help change his future. I've been so uninterested in church lately. IDK what's up with that. I think I'm like burned out or something. That is not good at all. Everything is the same at church, nothing new. I've been trying to get involved in the children's ministry, but that's just not for me. We got a new Sunday school teacher and I'm scared that she will lead me away from going because she sort of gets on my nerves. I have like 2 or 3 more weeks of microbiology left. I hate that stinkin class. I have no interest in the subject. I'm glad that this is the last time that I'll have Dr.Crump. The whole class is dumb. I hope to come out of that class with a B. I'll be studying my bootie off for that final. Jack is so big. He's so smart that he's sneaky and mean haha. I still love him though. I'm listening to Ben Folds. I wish that I could play the piano like him. He's freakin awesome. Well I better wrap this up. I guess I'll update this thing in a few months lol

Valentine's Day was yesterday. I hate that holiday haha. Tyler of course doesn't come home from Auburn so I had nothing to do. He did surprisingly send me some really nice flowers. He won't answer his phone for me to thank him tho. Pageant is in a week. I'm so excited!! I'm a bit nervous too. I have no clue how I want to do my hair. It's worrying me. I got some awesome casual/ interview outfits yesterday. I hope that the pageant goes well for me. I will be eating,sleeping, and breathing tissues for the next week. That should be pretty fun NOT haha. At least I have good study buddies lol

I'm am sittin in the library on the computer like I always do on lab days. I'm pretty used to doing nothing on days like today. Yesterday was amazing. I went to Tyler's farm in Danville. I felt like a real country girl lol. I really like him and now I know what he is all about. I met his whole family too. He was afraid that I would scared away by them, but of course I wasn't. I really think that there is more to us than we have put out there. I just really wish that he would say more though. I know that he is worried about school and distractions. He says that he doesn't want to be tied down, but I think he really does want to be w/ me like that but he's too scared to show his real emotions. I'm not an emotional by any means, but gah let a girl know. I guess all I can do is pray about it and not worry.
I've been asked to chaperone some of the youth girls during disciple now ar church. This means that I have to do bible studies w/ them and really be an open role model. I think most of the girls can talk to me pretty easily b/c I put myself out there for everyone and I'm friends w/ everyone. Pray that I can take on this responsibility and do the job that God has called me to do.

Being patient...

Well I've been patient w/ God for quite some time now. I've been through ridiculous relationships and still haven't really found what I want. I think I've found it now tho. Tyler is awesome. I graduated w/ him and was always really great friends w/ him. A few months ago I realized that I wanted to be more than just friends w/ him. He's always liked me so it wasn't hard for him to feel that way too. He was dating another girl at the time and the timing was so wrong. Well in the past month me and him have been dating and hanging out. He lives in Auburn/Danville so it's hard to find time to see each other. He is so easy to get along w/ and I don't have to change a thing about myself for him to like me. He has done alot of things that I absolutely don't agree w/, but he's past all that now. He has the same morals as me and that is really important w/ my Christian walk. I know that I can't tell him this yet, but I do love him. I think I always have tho.